心境與思緒... Emotions & thoughts...

For the passed few weeks... A lot of things happened, good and bad things just kept on coming up 1 by 1. From a tiny slight mistake during day to day routine job up to some really really bad news kept happening in my life. My emotions was like roller coaster... up and down without knowing when will this ends. I felt so tired, messed up and sometimes happy or even grateful for certain incidents... Sometimes, I can't even concentrate on what I am doing anymore.

Last week, when I was in KL. After having a quick lunch with my cousin. We said goodbye toeach other and as I was stepping down the stair case heading to my car. My mind was like went off and thinking about something... I missed my steps and fell... luckily, not injured badly, but i twisted my ankle and it hurts til today. My tears almost came out... I couldn't walk properly that whole day. =,="

My job this week happened to be one of the busiest after CNY. This is the time that company has decided to come out with a lot of promotions. But, with the market getting slower and slower, sales target is still sky high... I am not looking that well now. =,=" Yet, there were so many stocks in the outlets now, coz almost all the outlets actually loaded their warehouses and store rooms with all the stocks they can during the CNY sales. All I can do now is just make sure those stocks are gone before they reached their best before date. If not, I am going to be in deep deep trouble. @@"

Emotionally, I was really unstable for the passed few weeks. I laughed like a crazy man sometimes (when I was happy or releasing my tention). Sometimes, when I was back at home late at night, I just couldn't control my tears. The pressure, pain, tireness and the sadness actually attacked me during these dark hours at the same time.

I am really lucky coz I still have friends and family that had been supporting up til now. Thank you all for giving me the support and love. I might not be the best friend, the best son, the best boy friend, the best brother or cousin to you. But, down deep in my heart, I am really happy to have all of you being with me.

I do not know how long my life will be. But, during this moment, I want each and everyone of you to know that I love you all. I will treasure every single moment we had together.

Love,

Jack aka fox

最近的心情, 起伏太大. 好消息跟壞消息連二接三的到來. 從工作上雞毛蒜皮的一點小事到一些日常生活中不常遇到的一些事情, 一波未平一波又起... 自己覺得好累, 從未如此感覺過傷感, 痛心還有疲憊. 或許這就是人生必須經歷過的一個過程.

上個星期, 在與表哥午餐後. 本來就是馬上開車回去關丹. 可是步行著前往車子的時候, 很自然的走神了. 一個不小心, 俗稱"叉錯步"的事件發生了. 下樓梯的時候, 跌倒... 扭傷了腳. 但是事後回想到底自己在想些啥卻完全沒有印象...

工作上, 經濟蕭條導致行銷這個行業目前越來越是難搞. 去到每一家店, 很明顯的每一間店的生意都受到影響. 再加上公司所設的目標太高, 自己並不知道還能挨多久... 目前, 市場上充滿了所謂的"年貨", 因為農曆新年期間, 店家們都把貨倉塞得满满... 新年期間, 市場根本無法消化如此龐大的貨量. 但是公司的政策就是不管三七二十一, 乘機會先大賣特賣... 但是如果真正的考慮到真正的銷量, 貨品的有效用期, 這是極度不健康的行銷方式... @@" 我已經開始很忙碌的利用新貨把一部分將到期的"年貨"換回公司. 如果所有的"年貨"都賣不出去... 後果不堪設想... =,="

心情方面, 實在是大起大落... 乾妹的離去, 讓我難過了好久, 對於所有已經發生的事情, 讓自己高興開心的雖然不少, 但是令自己悲痛傷心的也很多. 偶爾, 跟朋友們去喝酒狂歡, 或是唱歌發洩... 有時候狂笑到像一個瘋子. 然而, 有時候孤單一人夜深人靜的時候, 抱著枕頭卻無法壓抑心中的悲痛, 始終淚流不止...

我很慶幸自己找到了發洩心情的途徑, 聽歌,唱歌或是寫部落都一直是我用來撫平心情的好辦法. 我也非常榮幸的有一直對我關心, 關懷的朋友還有家人. 沒有你們, 或許我一天都挨不下去. 我或許不是一個稱職的朋友, 家人, 男朋友, 兄弟... 但是我希望大家都知道的就是在我心中, 你們是如此的重要.

沒有人會知道, 這一生會有多長... 但是在有生之年, 我會好好珍惜每一段和你們度過的時光. 高興或是傷心, 你們始終是我心中最重要的那一部份. ^^"

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